went through wad seems like hell today.. twice.
once was in school where i had to face Lily Lim. she's so fucked up that i could barely stand her. i actually end up crying. not cos i'm stressed. juz dat i cant take it animore. i fuckin hate her. we consult teacher, to seek for enlightenment on our probs... they are there to help us. but this bitch? she onli make ppl more confused. jere nearly go bang the wall or something. sux.

as for the second 'hell', is at wilfred's new home. he have now officially moved in. his mum accused him of stealing. and wilfred got very agitated cos he hates to be accused. he got very very angry and lost his cool and his mind and brought me along up to his apartment and confronted his mum. they shouted and he shouted and cried and then they fought. i had to pull them apart plenty of times and it was very very difficult. i can not break down. if i do, then all is lost. i kept my cool and kept pulling them apart. wilfred got a rather... deeper gash on his elbow. aniway, managed to resolve the crap, both settled down, both cried, both i hugged, and until all is fine, me n fred stayed in the room awhile. he kept apologising for having me go thro all these... wad to do.. if not me then who? i'm his gf haha...

after we're settled dwn, we went to IKEA and i bought him a rug, a bedroom desk, a dustbin and a carpet. hee... now his room so nice.

ok.. got this from pat's blog. about the meaning of my name, xianrui wang.

xian:
You have many talents, but not enough organizational ability. You have too many eggs in one basket and tend to be disorganized. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind.

rui:
You make impersonal decisions quickly, but not so with personal concerns. You like to think things over carefully, but tend to be indecisive. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection.

wang:
Take advantage of all opportunities. You must develop your creativity and talents. You are determined to prove yourself to others. You have a need to be up front. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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damn the stupid flu... i've been havin it since monday.. had a slight fever then... but i recovered soon after... but then again, the nose....*argh*...
yesterday i went over to wilfred's house.. he was moving into his new condo and there were lots of movement with the furniture.. my school ended at about 4:47PM so i went to Queenstown MRT and end up wilfred's still very busy with his moving so i had to wait at IKEA... on an off we were on the phone n i was askin if he was done or he'll be calling me to say sorry and dat he's still bz and i still hav to wait awhile more... so i ended buying a candle, one scented bag, and two cushions. i had to walk around it and loiter around IKEA and Anchor Point to wait for wilfred.. end up wait for hours and hours till nearly 9 before i can actually see him. he was very sorry for letting me wait for so long.... i went up and ate dinner with them. they still had some stuff to unpack so i helped out alittle and also unpacked his luggage to sort out his clothes and put them into his cupboard. he cried. for making me sad and having to wait, he cried. guess he's very tired... been shifting so much furniture today.. all the fatigue and worries... my silly dear. he said he missed me alot since tuesday. like as if we first dated hahaha.. ok i gotta rush for school now....

Our Father
On one trip he brought home
A piece of stone from the river.
Shaped like a child�s foot

And filled with the weight
Of the missing body, another time
He just walked in

With out lost brother
High on his shoulders
After a two-day absence;

And it seems like only yesterday
He was showing us
The long pole, the one out

There in the yard now,
Taller than himself,
That still hoists

Our mother�s washing out of reach.

Bill Manhire

heard about the new virus or worm? let me update you hehe apparently, my school's intranet SEEMS to be affected by it to. i'm not too sure but it seems like this worm, self-attaches to your email and firewall cant protect u from it and virus scan cant detect it! it affected many including friends around me and frm wad i heard, other ppl frm other countries kena too! so, avoid checking emails with attachments, including those that have pictures that will auto-load. if not, good luck. and adios amigo! hahaha to find out more you might wanna try to go to symantec official webbie. i ain't too sure wad the worm name is... and also, if u net starts lagging and u hav problem opening ur IE or u internet access juz cant work... u MIGHT juz hav gotten the worm....

i think my school server kena mebbe is bcos ppl like to check emails in school wahaha and dat includes me!!!!

My personality is rated 32.What is yours?

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

I am in 80% control of my life.Who controls yours?

You have a healthy mix of internal drive and belief in external forces (fate, your friends, coworkers, luck). You know when something is your job, and if you want it to turn out good, you will work on it. You also know when something is beyond your control, and you're usually OK with that.

ok.... this is bad....
ole doesn't seem to exist hahaha bad enough is the fact that i have to hand in my assignment on monday.. followed by another bad thing which is that i couldn't access to ole since last night... now is the ultimate horror.. here i am, sitting infront of the comp in wilfred's hse... checking on ole once again BUT, this time, it's worse. error page appeared and it seems like, ole doesn't exist!!! wad the.....

ok... apparently mum woke up looking normal...
but with her right eye swollen for unknown reasons..
she told me took a sleeping pill after talking to me...
apparently it's due to the pill that she behaved strangely..
i don't know who's fault was it the she complained she have been sleeping very little
especially last night... my fault cos i came home late and she's waiting..
lotsa dad's fault cos he keeps disturbing her every one hour
to eat.. about 4D.. about me... etc..
stupid dad

i still cant log onto OLE..how on earth am i to submit my assignment!?!?!?

something that totally freaked me out...
it hit me so hard, that i'm so paranoid now...
mum woke up for her usual toilet trip... as usual she smoked while talking to me..
as we chatted she told me about the new bag she bought frm GUESS
it cost her about $70++
all these is pretty normal...until..
the part when she start to smoke and was sitting on the chair talkin to me.
she started behaving strangely.
her eyes are very droopy.. her actions slow..
her speech is blurry and slow.. she starts to drift off to sleep..
with a cigarette still in her hands!!!
i called her and she woke up a little... then drift off..
then she tried to tap the ash off... she keeps aiming wrongly.
then she drifts off.... i got terribly puzzled... i nudged her and she woke up...
tried to tap the ash.. but keep aiming off the ash tray....
try to smoke a puff.... with the burnt part facing her!!!
quickly i snatched it a put it off.. i called her... she drifts off..
i have to shake her a few times... still, she had problem wakin up....
she drifts back and forth and when i tried to get her to go to slp...
she drifted off again... i held her by her armpit and tried to help her up...
she had a lot of problem getting up.. even when she finally did...
the way she walked was very strange.... she fell onto the bed and went to sleep when i led her into the room..
i was very very scared.... for a moment.... she reminded me of how she might be like..
if she were to have the old ppl sickness of being senile...
totally freaked me out..
i woke up the sleeping wilfred and cried on the phone with him...
it just totally freaked me out that she might be 'not right'...
when i thought i was more calm and walked into the room....
i found her lying on the floor, having rolled off the bed.
i had to carry her back onto the bed..
*heartpain*
what happened to my mum?

after perhaps what seems to be an hour or so, she woke up and had a drink.
much better now
she couldn't remember wad happened...
hopefully wad happened was juz an once-off incident...

ok right now, the only thing i can say, is that i'm totally drained out of my energy and is dead tired. apparently alittle pissed of about wilfred's idea of calling me if he cant fall aslp and not calling if he does.. it's like.. wad if u cant slp but u wait v long to call me? den i'll feel like sucha dumbass waiting like this... this is wad i hate.. him, and sometimes his soccer... and then i end up waiting for hours and hours.. once it happened to eat into the whole of my evening till late night to only catch up with less than 30mins on the phone with him. mebbe i should be alittle more 'considerate' since he havent slept much cos he had to wake up in the morning to go to his new hse... but still... *sigh*

Saturday Stuff
i got home alittle late today so basically i missed my slot again. i almost overslept in both buses.. damn tired. did nothing much at wilfred house but chilling out with him and snuggling up onto the bed and >*stuff*.. but time passed real quick and soon it was 8PM. i sorta reached his hse only at about 5+ cos i was having japanese class earlier on. sano was at heeren to catch the autograph session of Avril Lavigne.. too bad i cant go cos wilfred is too tired. we were considering to watch 8mm today.. at cck but then we changed our mind cos it's kinda late... we end up having dinner at his hse with me cooking mee goreng (instant noodles) and frying an egg each for both of us...
hehe at least it tasted pretty gd..

-end-

i forgot about the fact that we have arranged to go out tomorrow to watch 8mm and end up arranging a project meeting after school... ( =_=")
oh well.. guess i have to find another day for the movie... our CS2 situation 1 project is due on monday yet when i tried logging onto OLE today the stupid server was down..
shit man.. how to do like that!? die..

ok i'm really damn tired.. and the thought of whether wilfred is sleeping or not is pissing me off... shucks. think i go play my sims.. waste some time.. darn... my eyes could hardly keep themselves open...

You are blue. You are somewhat innocent, in the fact that your genius only extends to the physical world. You have a false sense of contentness. You are usually the quiet one, the genius. Everyone can count on you to help when they have problems, but you only fall short of being able to solve your own.

What inner color are you?

hehehe today i got my slot right! right now it's 3AM and i just got home from orchard road. i was previously at wilfred's house in choa chu kang, watching the 2003 mtv asia awards.. then about the going home part, basically the first trip was smooth. i got my bus and the driver was kind and i got to orchard pretty quickly. here comes the down part. i waited at lucky plaza for my bus no.16M. apparently the first bus was supposed to be there at 12.05AM and last at 04.05AM.. i was there at about 1.50AM or so... the frequency of the bus (as stated on the board) was supposed to be a bus every 20 minutes or so but i waited and waited and end up waiting for over an hour and STILL, no bus!!!! this is totally absurb man!!! cant believe it.... waste my time! i end up taking the cab ANYWAY!? wasted $11.45! shucks... i'll go complain to their office later....

for the earlier part of the day, after school, oh btw, jeremy called me up in the morning and told me he had fever. ann didn't come. same goes for yvonne and wendy had stomach cramps. end up only me and shaikha came so i had to cancel the meeting but i printed out my materials in the comp lab while waiting to meet with wilfred.. *sigh*.. mr leng talked to me alittle while about yvonne... haiz duno lar... wash my hands off her.. me n sano n wilfred met up to do his shopping... finally he bought a pair of jeans which look pretty nice, at P.O.A for $58. not bad! *hehz*

fred sorta had a tiff with terry... something that complicates me... terry was supposed to come and help him with the shopping... but he complained that he is very sian to come cos i'm there. he thought it would be a 'guy only' outing.. apparently wilfred got pissed off with him and cancelled their meeting... sometimes terry could be so childish.. *sigh*

i wanted to get another top but couldn't find one that i like.... i took $50 from mum and have yet spent it..
sucha tiring day.. i'll be going to swimming with wilfred...

Thursday
*paiseh*
hehehe another late entry.. OPPSIE DAISIES!
sorrie lah.... hehehe busy doing other things.
basically i had a good day joking around with terry, shaikha and jeremy...along with mr leng.
we were cracking some racist joke *no offense* and terry is a very good story teller..
so we all laugh like mad like that.. so basically it was pretty enjoyable BUT..
then came the down side...
the next tutorial i had was communication skills and the tutor was a lady teacher. name? Lily Lim. fucked up. yeah.. datz wad she is.. normally a class would jest and joke and be noisy.. ours weren't too bad.. usually other teachers would joke with us too... but she? give u a fucked up look. always rushing us to get on with the class always rushing through the things and gets either too draggy or confusing. simply, she made the WHOLE class dislike her at great length.. not bad huh? well, she made that part of my day pretty fucked up.

me n my group members (exclude yvonne and ann) went on down to IKEA to do our observation research. pretty enjoyable trip... wilfred at first couldn't get down but he managed to, so he joined us. jeremy was very much himself, being dramatic and making alot of noise. laugh until mad. anyway, we walk around and since it's jeremy's first time being in IKEA so he's pretty awed by the amount of variety offered in IKEA. we ate the swedish meatball there. quite nice actually. $5.50 for 10.

after we're done, wilfred's mum or dad called him up and asked him over to anchorpoint to get his new year clothes. we went walking around in queensway shopping center and got wilfred two t-shirts... his pants he'll buy it tomorrow with terry.... i chose one of the shirts for wilfred and is pretty glad that he straight away liked it. hehehe...

ok...gotta go to school now... see ya!

Wednesday Stuff
gee.. for the past few nights almost ALL my entries are one day late hahaha so sorry.. but this is wad happens when i get stuck to the comp playing The Sims. anyway i didn't go to school today cos the schedule sux. guess what? teacher cancelled one lecture and end up i only have ONE lecture that is from 4 - 5PM... mad timing sia...i den dun wan to go. anyway, i went shopping for new year clothes in the afternoon with mum.. we went to parkway. i bought a set.. means one top and one pants and i like it alot! although the colour is kinda to the darker side hahaha *oppsie daisies* if got chance i take a pic in it i'll show you all. anyway other than that, i've pretty much spent most of my time at home playing the sims. right now my eyes are damn tired.. tomorrow still need to wake up early and then afternoon go to IKEA so i havta go to bed soon.. sorry for the late entry. bye all.

SAGITTARIUS November 22 December 20
You are insensible and generally have no complete
control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly
and others marvel at your anger levels even when
provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and
you will remove your anger waiting for the other
person to calm down. Then you will reason with your
opponent and convince the other person in a very
gentle manner that the whole thing was just his
mistake. You're also likely to totally sever ties with
someone when you're upset with them

well... pretty true about the tongue-tied part for me...haha
stole this from pat's blog...(who stole it from her sis's! @_@)

Tuesday Stuff
while i was in the bus to school mum gave me a call and told me i received a package from japan. ms rieru sent it to me.
i only got to see it when i reach home at night.. she managed to stuff alot of things in!! and although i am unsure of what's the reason or occasion for a gift but i really liked what she sent me!! she's so nice!


This is how the package looked like before I opened it up.

One of the first thing I saw after opening up the package. 2 pair of The Dog Collection keychains!

Two more keychains of The Dog Collection but then it's plastic.

Some really cute decorative item. i think it's for us to put stuff inside...

i overlooked this for a moment.... it's somesort of a hankie!

Monday Stuff
okok my apologies for having my blog updated late.. hehe i'm kinda TOO ABSORBED with playing The Sims. Sano juz lent me the game yesterday. HeHe i created two new families.. one is a couple whereas the other is a single mum with two kids. since sano taught me the cheat code i spent alot of time... and money haha to decorate the house.. create some new rooms and also buy all the good furnitures.. *WhEe* go home play somemore whahahaa

okok an account on wad da HECK happened yesterday... we went to eat in a japanese + western food restaurant in orchard towers. man did we have a hard time looking for it!!! some bLaRdY fool.. the one from the stall (look like orange julius) outside Takashimaya.. stupid fool point us towards somerset direction and say it's somewhere there.. far down.. then when wilfred ask him where exactly is it, all that fool know is to say "ya..somewhere down there..further down..." ya..further down...further down HIS HEAD AR! @$#@#%$^ make us walk all the way down and end up still cannot find the shop. SO, i ask wilfred to call the outlet since i have a card of theirs. end up the stall is all the way down the other end of where we are... somewhere opposite the starbucks outlet down Forum that area.. KAOZ...then too bad lah we walk to the bus stop that's before somerset mrt there and boarded the 190. we sit until about.. orchard mrt there before we alight to cross over from the underpass to borders then from there we walk on. sian sia.. but it was worth it hehehe after what we've been through, it has been well rewarded. The restaurant was a combination of Zen Sushi and Bonaza. hehehe...

We had trouble looking for the stall even though we were in orchard towers already cos it�s so happened that there are two buildings and is connected by only an overhead bridge. No wander we walk all over the place and we can�t find the shop... sux man we even asked the security guard but guess what they say? �dunno.� Wah lau eh�

anyway when we finally found the shop, we went in and the manager greet us and guided us to a table. We settled down and had a meal with my voucher� the woman there is very composed and� professional. But very nice too. While we were sitting there, she came over and gave us three menu and we were all confused over what to order and I think she knew it and used that opportunity to ask us if we needed drinks and suggested coke� and lemon juice and stuff� if we did, we had to pay! Ah hah! So I ask Wilfred dun order� then the woman suggested water� we thought, you know, water should be don�t cost much so we say ok, we�ll have water instead. End up you know wad!? ARGH one cup $5!!!! So it�s like one �ok� and $15 is gone lidat� *cries*..

anyway we checked the prices to make sure what we eat is within our budget.. but every once in awhile the manager would come over to suggest us some stuff and I felt like the kid and she�s the mum haha.. we finally placed order and for the main meal, I had gyuu don (beef bowl), sano had una don (eel bowl) and Wilfred had.. ok I forgot the name but it was salmon. Then we ordered two side dish. All in all we managed to stay within our limits but end up the bill came and it was $107++.. (see sano�s blog for details) $9 for service charge and $4 for GST. So I forked out five bucks and sano two. Hehehe that�s the end of our wonderful meal. I lived the life of the rich and famous for an hour..

hahahaha not bad huh? Then we walked to 7-11 and sano bought peach tea while I tried out the vodka drink name.. strobe.. yeah.. it�s about $5.30.. Wilfred recommeneded it to me. The stupid counter guy wanted my i/c.. blardi idiot reminded me of my age hahaha.. I�m twenty man!! Or technically, only 19. hehe ok fine. I�m 19. lolz we walked down to lido area and I went into MANGO to find the jacket I saw in suntec. That time in suntec I wanted to buy it but then end up the tailoring got problem and now I cant find it anywhere else� sux big time man� we slacked around abit and walked back down to Heeren and walked around there too� soon, we decided to go home and we walked down to somerset where we parted our ways to go home. Hehe I got glued to the comp since I got home cos I was busy playing the sims wahaha� end up playing till 3AM in the morning when I was supposed to sleep at 1AM cos of school tomorrow�

Forgetting to mention, before I met Wilfred and sano, I was with Yvonne cos after we finish school and I had nothing to do. We finished early at 2 while I was supposed to meet Wilfred they all at 4. me and Yvonne talked a lot today cos of her new relationship and stuff like that while I talked about mine too since she asked. We went shopping and walked around looking and trying out clothes and stuff like that lah..

When I came home that night, dad told me to wear his shirt.. damn oversized hahaha but nice so I wore it to school wahahaha�it�s MINE now! Muahahahaha� he say I help him �warm� his shirt.. haha new year that day he want to wear. Kaoz..

I think��� that�s about it lah.. can remember what else happened. Hahaha so I�ll end here. Ciao ciao!

*rub eyes*
yaaaaaaaawnz...~
stretch out
haiz... it's 7+AM in the morning and i'm up and ready to go school.. *sigh*
i hate having to wake up so early in the morning just to go to school... sian...
i was having fun chatting online BUT i have to go sleep early..
everyone seems to come in only after 12 and 1AM.. why man.. lolz` i online so long no one ard..
going soon already then got ppl come..

hehehe sano lending me the sims later... seems like everyone is addicted to it..
amazing how old games can rekindle the addiction in people...
i used to have gotten sick of it hahaha but now i wanna play it again...

it's gonna be another loooong day.. today's timetable is a mad schedule..
lecture at 9AM..
followed by a three hour break
which, i've taken 2 hours out to have a project meeting..
then 2 more hours for tutorial.. of which the teacher i dislike..
some young woman who does not seem to know her stuff.
i prefer mr siow... too bad he's not our teacher.. damn.
haiz... oh yeah.... i'm meeting up with wilfred n sano n ike later.. i think they wanna go to zen sushi instead.. i was wondering how on earth are we gonna EaT finish that $100 voucher... eat until mad..
HeHe juz letting u guys know... my project group (sadly excluding me and the only guy jeremy) are all chio bus! wahaha shaikha is pretty and Ann is simply good at dressing up. and original infact. everyday seeing her is like observing a fashion show where you get stunned everyonce in awhile at what she wears to school.. i saw her wear an overall on one day.. the next day she come in a totally different outfit. pink flowererd top (those loose light and ... i duno how to describe) and a skirt that matches with her bag... i stun. hahaha on day i go take neoprint with them then put it up here.

I'm gonna be off to wilfred's house in about..... 10 minutes time or so.. it's raining very heavily since 9AM... i woke up then, to have a toilet break and the rain was already pouring down and mum was nowhere to be found except the radio playing in the background. i tried looking around but it seems like she's out. i snuggled back into the comfort of my blanket and bolsters and drifted off to sleep very soon after.

"ger...wake up.. cook breakfast for you already.." (in chinese)
woken up by dad who's shaking my bones out trying to get me to wake up. he even flipped me over. =_="
i had chicken soup, egg, and some sausages....
could still hear the raindrops hitting onto the top of the metal shelter the construction workers put up.. plik ploks that goes on and on and the rain doesn't seem to be getting any lighter. it made me feel like it's 5PM instead of 12.. it makes me think... and hopefully.. it doesn't make me feel down and more depressed.

i kept apologising to fred for being crazy last night.. but he juz said it's fine and kept on being bubbly with me. sometimes he really amaze me. he bounce back to being happy very quickly (forced or not) and for my sake he have been exceptionally patient and gentle... only occasional breakdown into desperation because i was getting more hysteric instead of better... he said his only priority right now, is juz to bring happiness to me and the last thing he wants is for me to be sad and depressed. he's words both touches my heart yet on another hand, puts me to shame. i have been selfish and sink into depression too easily. i reminded him of his mother when i go hysteric. and it hurts him i know... i should've stopped but i didn't know how.. ...

rest of the day will be told when i get back..

>>played the sims..... hehehehehe extended a new room with toilets!!! all thanks to sano's cheat code hahahaha and tomorrow, me n ike n sano will be going down to orchard to eat something since i have that 100 bucks voucher... i finished typing muh project stuff.. today was a great day and wilfred was damn nice to me hehe and everything n i 'bathed' him too! wahah helped him wash his hair.... okok i go slp now cos tmr is a LOOOOOOOOOOONG day!

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP BED BED BED SLEEP BED SLEEP BED SLEEP SLEEP BED BED ......RARGH....*Zzz.Zz.zZz.z...*

...When Life is down in the pits, things could ONLY get better...

Saturday Stuff
went to wilfred's house...
all in all today was a good day and we had fun juz chilling out with him...
only thing was me. i got emotional over some small stuff.. well.. to me it's abit more than alittle but nevermind.. i'm still too emotional. fred had a hard time calming down and as the time passes, instead of getting better i got worse and more emotional and more hysteric and started crying and crying and behaved, accoding to him, psychotic. i murmur to myself, i blame myself... and then i cry again. even i am afraid of myself.. why am i behaving this way? why? i've never cried so much before and i hardly cry when i was young..... even if i'm a baby i dun cry so much. mum said i hardly cry. but why am i so emotionally unstable now? this is so damn irritating and unhealthy. fred even thought i had mental problem and asked if i needed to see a shrink.. geez..

i was playing with 'the sims' juz now.... hehe sano taught me the cheat codes for getting more money.. now i can renovate my house with my liking without constraints and also, NOW MY HSE SHO NICE HEHE..

i even extended the house space...

the codes:
ctrl + shift + c
type "klapaucius"
hehehe each time it generates $1000 more for ya!


How Emotional Are You?
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Sorrowdweller. You are not overcome by anger nor happiness. Your emotions are pretty well balanced, but you do tend to get somewhat emotional at times leaning towards depression and saddness. You have your own views of the world and while you do not see the beauty of life, you are not completely overwhelmed by darkness. Live and let live just because.

ok i've juz demoted from being balanced to being a sorrow dweller.. sad case sia

Tired..... hahahaha nid to get more sleep liao.... but heck man...IT'S WEEKEND!! NO SCHOOL! wHeE!!!!!

man i am so sick of school hahaha
recollectin wad happened this morning, hey i'm talkin about friday lolz`, my first tutorial was alrite... quite chit chatty cos jeremy keep making fun of the teacher and the teacher suan him back... after that, me n shai n jere (my classmate n grp mates) went on dwn to design school's canteen to makan. as usual i ate only chicken wing, chestnut drink and a packet of M&Ms hahaha... duno wads up with my new crazy meal. been eating this for the past two days... we had lotsa fun n laughter chatting there as terry joined us and we talked alot of rubbish... laugh until stomach pain..
then we attended the boring Tech M lecture. As USUAL, the lecturer is very lame..... cos it's the L A M E man's lecture. he talk damn fast sometimes it's like machim we dun come can already cos come oso dun get him might as well don't come.... but after his lecture we had to attend a talk by some woman frm SRA (singapore retailing association) to brief us on our project. stupid woman forgot about the website. now our grp hav so little materials to work on...

sux....

arranged to meet hengluan after school to pass shue hui her present and then meet at queenstown mrt at 3PM with wilfred...
i met yk there haha he's going to IKEA but me n fred went on up to his house. stayed in his new room for awhile... at the moment still no bed but there's a light and a curtain... and they had guests in the house i pretty much stayed in the room... me n fred decided to go for a walk in IKEA since his parents are still talkin to the guests.. supposed to do CNY shopping... me n fred walked around and ate the $1 hotdogs there.... very delicious.. i then walked over to KFC to get some popcorn chicken hahaha while we're waiting in IKEA, we were sitting at the steps of the overhead bridge outside and chatting... before that we were checking out the MAC computers... very stylo...

i had dinner with fred and his parents and brother.... after that they left and fred and i went back to the house cos my bag is there... we stayed around awhile till about 10PM before we started leaving.. me n fred was wrestling in his room in the afternoon hahaha we were trying to tickle each other...

By the way, i juz drew a new picture today. You guys can go check it out. ^___^
it's a picture of Chii and Hideki from CHOBITS.

SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL SUX!!!!!!!
SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL SUX!!!!!!!
SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL SUX!!!!!!!
SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL SUX!!!!!!!
*thumbs down big time*

classes as BORING as ever, Ms Lily Lim as confusing as ever!
the ONLY THING i enjoyed was the tutorial class with Mrs Joyce Wu..*geez*
my fanart page is redone... you guys can check out my FanArt Page here...

later must go and type my project stuff somemore.. sian..
tomorrow i might not be able to the project meeting... haiz.. muz follow wilfred for his CNY shopping spree...
wah sian sia everyday go school and be bored stiff..
yvonne oso one kind.. alwaiz ponteng... wads the point of wasting $ to go to school then?
might as well quit and go work since half the time she's not in school anyway... in fact it's more than half the time..

i used the time meant for break to type out the stuff shaikha gave me in the afternoon and returned it to her soon after.. lolz she's pretty stunned at the speed...
later need to compile them up... haiz...

when i told jeremy that tmr i cant go for the meeting but i very "democratic" one so they all can go for project without me then he complain complain and say no nid lar then kacau me ask issit i go out with bf... so hehe i inturn kacau him back by saying, "ok lah! dun care ah tmr u all shall have meeting without me!"

MUAHAHAHAHA

he actually screamed on the other end of the phone man!

Wednesday Stuff
ok.... been busy trying to revamp the look of my FanArt page cos i find it abit messy and kiddish...
well it's still under construction so please bear with me.
^___^

school is pretty boring today as usual and i'm supposed to go to sleep now cos i hav sch early tomorrow so this entry will be alittle short and rushed..
basically i went to school two hours earlier today for my project meeting and i am glad that something fruitful came out of it. we did alittle bit of our project and now we're ready to go to the next step....

jeremy had fever today and couldn't come. wilfred went out with terry in the afternoon but right now he is off watching his soccer....
ok. i'll end here lolz sorry yeah.. ciao!

shucks... the flu virus tagged me in the afternoon.
right after Tech M tutorial.... we wanted to do the flower shops but fuck man.. veron's grp is also doing the same thing and worse thing worse, grps cant choose the same topic to start on and they were one step ahead of us in submitting their topic thus we have to choose a different topic. totally have no idea what on earth we could do on... tried watch... tried bags.... tried loads of things but non worked out.... thank god eventually we found a topic to start on... "jewellery".

ok at least we have something to work on...
i'm so stressed man... i feel so out of place and so disoriented.. i'm just so damn tired and so damn lost and i simply hate school.. i hate the fact that i have to cry almost every night thinking how much i hate school and how much i want to get out of there.. mebbe i aim too high... for the grades and it's stressing me... but if not, then how? i know myself n i cant juz settle with average grades... i wan good grades.. i know... and i nid to work damn hard for it.. so much so that ppl even say i am nuts..

i kept crying and crying and crying even though i am sick with headache and running nose that my mind cant think clearly no more and my head hurts like hell but i juz couldn't stop crying.. i hugged wilfred for so long and i juz got so sick of the idea of leaving him and so sick of the idea of going back to school that i kept crying and crying...

when will all these crap end?

met joyce in the late afternoon... i was eating halfway so wilfred help me to go find her... she passed us the talking cock posters and also the cd.. wilfred so happie to get the poster lolz`...

hey sano, go get the poster frm fred when u free

we were listening to the talkin cock cd at wilfred's hse and it's so damn lame and funny.... laugh like mad...
killer cd... haha

i bought 3 comics today.. used NETS to pay.. hehehe.. who cares as long as i hav my comics.. i so happie till i bounce all over the place...
1) CHOBITS (last book)
2) Naruto
3) Black Cat

*WhEe!!!!*
i bought a new bag!! or rather, mummy bought a new bag for me!!!



it cost about $29.90 and we bought it at "fond hugs" in suntec city..
i was walking around in the shop trying to get more stuff actually... lookin at the shirts.. the pants... slippers.... skirts... all rather nice and very special. those kinda D.I.Y bits and pieces indo-like clothes... aa... so tempted man... too bad no suitable ones... i went to MANGO earlier on.... everything was so damn cheap man.. too bad their jeans dun hav my size... and most of the gd stuff are already gone... i saw this jacket which i like alot but it's too small and there's some sewing mistake... shit man. keep thinking of it hahaha i'll go check it out elsehwhere... mebbe i'll get lucky.. hehehehe *evil laughter*

i met gloria.. at suntec.... wonder what's she doing there.. also i went to find meimei..stupid ger quit liao never tell me... stupid ike know already also forget to tell me...

i'm siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinging in the rain........... i'm siiiiiiiiiiiiiinging in the raaaaaain~!!!

*shivers*

hahahaha....freakin cold this early in the morning...
guess i have no choice but to bring my jacket along..
have been having freak weathers nowadays... suddenly hot and humid then here goes a *BOOM!* and the thunder cracks. next thing you know it's pouring like nobody's business... juz saw the interview of that new japanese lil boy grp - HEADS - they seem pretty alrite... they juz came singapore not long ago didn't they? i could've slept more... but i didn't.. why? cos i have to attend a lecture that is at 9AM.. why issit that i could've slept more? cos after the lecture i have an 3 hour break before the next lecture comes along. sux huh? i guess that's juz life... we have mad timetable slots.. ( =__=")

how i wish i have more time... and how i wish i have last year's timetable back... almost all classes start late... then i could sleep till my heart's content... now i have to wake up at 7AM for every sundays, fridays and thursdays... imagine having to sleep early for a sunday how bad could that be? geez...

erm...ok this is gonna be rushed cos i gotta wake up at 7AM tomorrow.. it's technically 12:18AM now although the entry might be sometime at 11PM ++
i went to wilfred's hse, met up with sano and we all went to lot 1.
i bought this keychain puppy and i'm gonna bring it to school tomorrow!!
erm right now i am typing damn fast hahaa *rushed* and talkin to dear twit for awhile before i go to sleep.
erm..... i did up some notes for the IKEA talk i attended... as usual dipti (however u spell it) asked questions...act smart but her qns damn boliao sia... niwae, erm.. i gotta go catch some sleep already.

Saturday Stuff
i'm pretty darn tired right now.. give me a bed and i can fall asleep almost instantly.
i woke up since 7AM this morn to attend a talk by IKEA's GM this mornin... i havent been sleeping enough these past few nights and school has been both stressful (cos of projects) and boring as usual. no joy whatsoever in attending classes man... how i wish i was back in those days when i am so happy in school during secondary school.. i had all my friends then..

i met mr lau on the cross junction of heeren and cineleisure.. wonder what's he doing there..
i wore the earring and bangle heng luan gave me for my bdae present and that mango shirt i bought ages ago but only wore it once cos it's abit revealing... i matched it with a pair of jeans.. turned out to be very nice. lolz` fazli seemed to be pretty shocked seeing me with make up. i've been talkin alrite with hui shan lately... found her to be a very nice and approachable person... those kinda ppl i like to make friends with like heng luan and shue hui... likewise for yifeng.. so i chatted up alittle with her along the way and as the talk ended pretty early and i was supposed to meet wilfred only at 1PM, me, hui shan and veron went on to somewhere opposite the school to eat.. or rather.. they eat and i sit hahaha...

when i left to meet wilfred, it already started drizzling and when i reached my school bus stop it was already pouring..
the both of ask par tor around orchard till about 3PM or so.....
we met kit and daniel... kit was very friendly with us but daniel seems pretty unfriendly and also, seems to want to avoid us if possible.. oh well... dun quite understand japanese anyway.. amazingly, kit is the one who managed to tame or rather, hold daniel's heart cos i heard from fred that she is so far one of his longest r/s.. hm.. haha.. she's a very stylo girl.. everytime i see her, she change her style and this time her hair is blondish brown.. with a blonde fringe... very nice... rocker chic! haha..

anyway cos i think i'm starting to tire out, me n fred left to go to his house instead to rest. cos fred is rather sensitive so i teased him the whole day lolz` and then later at night, bernard came over and sano too. while we made fred read some passages of chinese, we were all laughing our heads off. hm.. then while sano was playing the computer games, me n fred was watching tv and chatting over some stuff... i was thinking.. he's really nice to me. lolz.. we've been together for a year and two months and he is still rather nice to me... he botheres to accompany me for alot of things... cos after hearing jeremy alwaiz complaining abt being lazy to go meet his gf and what not.. i think compared to wilfred he lose by alot. fred have matured alot since the first time i met him.. he is more sensible and pragmatic in handling and thinking about his future rather than those childish and unrealistic..

feel asleep on the bus trip home...fred gave me a call. lolz... he's afraid that i might overshot my stop... ^__^

think i'll stop here and get some rest...
ciao

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meet aarika lee today... she as pretty as usual but her hairstyle is much different. shorter with blonde streaks.
met another rather nice lookin guy whom terry was telling us about who looks like edison chen...
i'm very tired cos i woke up since 7AM and went on down to meet wilfred after school..
inititally it was pretty alrite... then terry came...
and they went to play pool and soon i left.
before that me n fred had a tiff cos they left and went into the lift without me and i wasn't aware of that and thus when i turned around, they suddenly disappeared and it sorta had me off balance awhile cos i din hav my hp with me (with wilfred) so i was alittle anxious.. wondering where on earth they went..
at night i think i lost it cos of some stress and was very tempermental and easily angered and was havin fits and started crying....
fred was losin patience with me but thank god...
everything end up sorted out that night...


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Stuff to ponder..
well...this thought juz flashed across my mind in the afternoon.
now that i remembered it, i think i shall post it out haha... mebbe one of u could answer my questions?

remember the times when we are either bored or curious about those quiz in magazines that does analysis of our personality? Horoscopes.. astronomy.. yes/no quiz.. handwriting... etc.. ever wondered about the accuracy of these things? obviously i guess but i was wondering about the handwriting one. since shaikha commented on a particular passage i wrote and said that it doesn't look like my usual handwriting but i replied her saying that i had more handwritings than the standard one. lolz sometimes cursive.. sometimes small... or sometimes something else but then again, the quiz always ask, "which handwriting is yours?"
then what i thought was... what if all also is? haha then what does that mean?

anyway, went to school at 9AM today.. boring man..
but good thing was my cus com teacher is Ms Joyce Wu wahaha... gd gd... heng not dasilva.. i think she more responsible although dasilva would give more better comments since he is the course manager but joyce wu also very 'old bird' already so haha no difference. she's juz as good man. surprisingly, yvonne came today wahaha.. cos i gave a morning call. lolz` anyway, we left class and had two hour break. no idea what to do man... so we went to TM to eat. after that we sorta let yvonne sleep awhile before waking her up. wah the fried dumpling i bought was bigger than usual man... but damn damn damn the oily.. also, everything in the foodcourt is so expensive man... sian.. we took neo print!! hahaha... lazy to post them up... XP

i hate lily lim for some reason.
one, she has mad expression.
second, she machiam talking to herself.
half the time she talk we all totally dun get what she's talking about. lolz but she's not 'not nice'... juz that confusing... and that expression is.. =__="

tmr i meeting up with wilfred after school for awhile.. cant go out for long cos i have to wake up early to go school for that IKEA talk.
sian.... although i can say that my stress is still rather minimal cos we havent really started on the project... so i'm rather relaxed but i can say that i'm getting abit more edgy...

did up an 'update blog' for my grp members to save me the trouble of repeating lolz`
Project Stuff

went to school today for a boring two hours.
lecture only... apparently, CS2's tutorial have been cancelled for good...
but bad thing was lecture only comes after it...
starting from 3PM to 5PM.
Thank goodness Mr Leng was funny enough.
Guess the only thing that kept my enthu was the taking of pictures with the digital camera.
Joyce mixed up with me asking about her vid cam or something...
but the actual price of the digi cam was about a $1000++
( -__-")
i met up with her after school @ starbucks to finish up the interview.
she's meeting with ah seng ... i forgot when.. *short term memory*..
havent met yeong sing for quite awhile...
but.. well.. seems like she changed.. but i'm not sure. afterall, she could be juz simply busy that's all.
hopefully that's the case..cos... i hate to see a friendship drift apart..
after the interview and the viewing of the pictures, it was the end of the interviews i had with her since quite long ago..
she said that i was pretty unusual.. and interesting. *i tot i was damn boring actually*
and the way i look at things and think is deep and the way i remember things is also very unusual.
as in the sense that i can boil down to details when talking abt the past.. ppl and events and all..
but on a daily basis for things like taking my wallet or keys or stuff i can be so forgetful..
hahaha...
duno wad to say also.. duno y my crazy brain function lidat also..
last thing, she say i express myself in words in my blog is a rather artistic manner.. *confusion*

i created a blog for my group members to check up on the updates for our meeting times.. haha..

"....stay happy...."

datz what i've been telling myself lately... it's pretty stressful being a leader. i don't mind being the 'member' in a group lolz`.. although many say that being a leader you have more say. true. but i'm lazy haha... i dislike havin to take up extra loads and initiative to 'direct' ppl.. once ppl said i make a gd or rather alrite leader... cos i am not autocratic. i dun 'demand and order' my members to do things. neither do i talk to them in a harsh manner. i believe in harmony in the grp and everyone enjoying everyone else's company. too bad that didn't happen last term under veron's leadership although she is a very gd and dedicated leader. hopefully this term, i can MAKE yvonne come earlier lolz or COME hahaha... i dun mind giving her wake up call every morning lolz` unless miraculously she gets to sch herself w/o havin me to bother her. i'm gonna bug jeremy too lolz` my motto, "take the inititiative or i bug u to death" hahahaha *ebil grinz* i am the kind of person who don't mind being juz a simple member and follower... likes to keep the peace in the grp.. u gimme my job and i'll do my stuff... but me being quiet does NOT mean that you can juz simply ride all over my head and still expect me to keep quiet. once i flare up, it's the end of that sorry ass.

mebbe it's juz me.... i simply hate trouble or troublesome things. haha

the only thing i am stressed abt is whether we can complete the project.

was in school at...... 11PM. for some tutorial and then lecture. THANK GOODNESS, we had mr ng as our Tech Mgt tutor instead of that l a m e man. i cant believe how lame he was during lecture later that afternoon. geez.. *cracks lame joke* ... *waited for response*.... *blank stares*.. "ok not funny."... *whole class cracks up*
wad has the world come to, to produce such a lame man? anyway, we had jeffrey ho as our customer communication teacher.. seems like an interesting subject and since we had him last sem, we aint strangers to him no more. so the lecture was pretty alrite. sad thing was, i think our tutor is dasilva (course mgr) instead of joyce wu. *feels cheated* hahaha joyce wu told me she teaching our class.. dratz!

met up with joyce after class for her to pass me her digi cam... for one day... she wants me to take picture of my everyday life for her sorta... project lah.. for degree or something i forgot haha... LUCKY DEVIL SHE, the cam was sponsored to her!!! i osho wan!!! juz now i took a pic in bus.... i think i erm.. switched on the flash and clicked and apparently the flash was rather 'bright' so ppl turned ard to look wahaha sho paiseh...

i went swimming with wilfred today....

had 3 hours of break man today....
first lesson of the day was at 9am. madness. lecture and it lasted onli till 10.
then comes my 3 torturous hour of break....
i went to the bookshop to get some stuff first...
then back to the library to check out some flash and dreamweaver books...
jere came earlier and i went through the projects with him.
i think we're gonna make a website. lolz i pretty much convinced jere it's a wiser choice.
i hav my way of brainwashing ppl think that my way is the logic way w/o them knowing hahaha

after we're done, jere went n meet up with yvonne to smoke while i sat ard with veron n gloria they all.
they r grouping together afterall.
was checkin out who adel is grping with.... Sheena apparently joined them.
ok i'll skip through the details...sick of it anyway. basically i now hav my group members.
set my rules already... talked alot, made ppl comfy so far, brainwashed some,
and we all taking package C to do the webbie...

i missed out something. shaikha was stunning today. i almost didn't recognized her.
she wore something rather sporty and also i met up with shue hui and huimin
and they gave me my presents already..
it's a bangle and a pair of earrings. very nice.

then i went home with terry n jeremy.

think i'll be going to Ikea with wilfred tomorrow and swim after that..
talked alot with mari *again*
wonder y ppl somehow like to share personal things with me haha..
i guess that was about it..
cant remember much from today..

mebbe i'm juz too tired.
slept so little last night.... simply not used to sleeping earlier (12AM) and end up
waking every one hour and could onli finally sleep at 4AM... then woke up at 7AM....
burnt out already..
juz went to feng's web and once again had no idea wad she's writing abt lolz`
mind boggling stuff..

Hey Pat, pull urself together. be strong. pls?

Sunday Stuff
Two reasons why i missed my blog entries.
and here's how it goes:
>>First i missed my timing by juz a minute cos i was distracted by an online convo with shai as well as a phone convo with wilfred.
>>Then, my internet connection died on me.
Seems like Starhub pretty much hates me. Havent heard of a cable user disconnecting as much as me. It's like as if i'm a 56K user...
U went over to CCK today and went on a shopping frenzy in Comic Connection. First i bought 2 pen from the popular bookstore, then while i wait for fred, i was checking out posters in the comic shop and bought 1 chobits poster, 1 CLAMP X comic, and 1 Hikaru no Go sticker!!!





I even mailed Mel Teo a letter before all these. (She's in Australia). That lazy bum forever delays sending reply letters back.. and drags it for an incredible range of months.

Lotsa Stuff to do in school....
Fred's uncle did a fortune telling for fred.. seems pretty accurate.
He said that fred's wife will be fierce, dominating and a leader. Will bear him more kids than a usual family would. (can be controlled) and his current gf (me) is fierce but does well academically and will do well in the future. *hehz* Fred's future will be better in terms of finance and studies. most prob after 20. That's when he's "tao hua" luck (woman luck) lessens. His poor grades before were due to distractions and poor luck financially when young will change in the late future where he'll be more comfortable with money. (pretty accurate so far). One thing he must pay attention to is his health.

Hmm... I wonder what's mine? Well at least, hopefully fred's "fortune" told is true... to certain extent... at least my doubts for his future is lessened.

"...my time and thoughts are planned around you..."

Saturday Stuff
Got home alittle late today...
stupid thing was i returned at 12AM... lolx..
missed my blog by juz a lil`
my mind was moving very quickly while in the bus....
so many things bothering me..
grouping..
the project..
to do website or printed advertisment?
what could i do with them..
then ideas starts pouring in and my mind seems to be flying by in my mind is such a dizzying manner...
but about the website...
gotta go down to the library to borrow the dreamweaver books before it gets borrowed away totally..
then try to get the group members settled
and talk and discuss with jere n shai wad we gotta do for the project....
i wanna get this through smoothly with the least possible number of obstacles that could be avoided..
ken will be helping me with my dreamweaver whenever he can..
now the only thing i worry is flash.. shucks...

i'm not gonna waste time.
i notice that i am stronger sometimes when alone.
and break down when fred's around. wonder y..
mebbe its the defense mechanism and when i'm finally safe,
i let myself feel the emotions i've been blockin out..?
i'm gonna be stronger and more hardworking this sem.

juz got back frm fred's hse juz now...
my sims seems abit cocked up now...damn it..
k... nid to go do some stuff already.
ciao.

Which Chik Are You?
Ironically, you're Kitty, the "Unique" one. If you had to pick a favorite color, it'd most likely be black, but colors are for losers anyway. But you're not necessarily gothic either; nah, goths like yellow. Cuz I said so. You don't talk much, but you think alot. Maybe too much. Beware: thinking can be dangerous, especially for you. People are passe, and you'd much rather be in your own company, if at all. You tend to be a loner, and are often times considered callous and aloof. But if your trust can be won, you could be the prize of a lifetime.


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Cute-Sexy.... You have that childlike thing going on. White cotton panties and bobbysocks seem to be your calling card. Why don't we take some of those stuffed animals off your bed and kick it up a notch?

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Friday Stuff
i wonder why most of the ppl like karen and pat stopped blogging since sch started lolz` now i hav to ppl's blog less to read... so boring. sch was .... alrite today i guess.. but the lecturer named Paul is damn L A M E. laugh at his own jokes. siao one.

the other lecturer for CLIENT-P is mr leng sia.. haha at least not so bad... but both lecturers mentioned project and it's like so tough man... feel like puking blood already.... i've yet formed group.. talked to veron abt grping... we'll c how things go... haiz.. cant believed i cried over this. i was so so so stressed about so many things. sch, projects, grping, me turning 20 with all the crap shit responsibility, fred, money.... i duno when will i juz simply break dwn... i'm already losing it..

i went fred hse.. relac abit... packed ITAS's cutlet rice all the way to cck for him to eat. he say it's very nice.... hehe i hav something to lure him to come TP now... wahaha.. also, sano came over later in the evening.. 8++PM... he wanted to scan some pictures and i saw a pic of christine before she left for Italy.. she's pretty photogenic.. sano bought this pumpkin-like cap.. very cute sia make him look like golf cabby *hahaha* but then i put on ike even more cute. cos his hair long long then very jap style boi boi wahaha i look... fred say cute but the cap was damn big hahaha... my head too small liao.
most prob will b goin over to fred's hse again.... not going out much lately and cos joyce wanted to meet up to sorta take pics while we hang out *for interview* i oso dunno when then can arrange a time with her.... hopefully soon... cos she's going back on the 19th.. (i wonder if she's readin my blog haha)

fred's shifting hse on the 22nd....
next thursday will be me n fred's one year, two month annivasary!!! YAY!
i'll write a letter to mel teo.. XP been forgetting to do so for two days already...

i wonder when is the next time i can go swimming *hehez*

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The Forsaken Wife

Methinks, �tis strange you cant afford
One pitying look, one parting word;
Humanity claims this as due,
But what�s humanity to you?

Cruel man! I am not blind.
Your infidelity I find;
Your want of love my ruin shows,
My broken heart, your broken vows.
Yet maugre all your rigid hate,
I will be true in spite of fate;
And one preeminence I�ll claim,
To be for ever still the same.

Show me a man that dare be true.
That dares to suffer what I do;
That can for ever sigh unheard,
And ever love without regard:
I then will own your prior claim
To love, to honour, and to fame;
But till that time, my dear, adieu,
I yet superior am to you.

Elizabeth Thomas

The speaker in this poem uses the weapons of her courage and wit to attack her unfaithful husband.

Left Brain or Right Brain?
110 to 149 >> Neither your left brain nor your right brain dominate. With few exceptions, you use both sides equally and have ability in both. In many ways, you have the best of both worlds, because you don't see things from a narrow viewpoint, you're even tempered, balanced, and you have a good head on your shoulders.

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Boring day @ school today.
got mr siow back as our lecturer and hopefully, tutor, for CRM (customer relationship management).
haiz. have to spend money on textbk again.
well at least this time round it's cheaper.
CS2 (communication skills 2) tutor was Lily Lim. seem friendly enough
but think she 'chooses' whom to pay attention to.
abit hypocrite-like.... hmm i nid more time to assess her...
got to sch in the same bus as jeremy did... shai got lazy and din come.....
i'm gonna meet hengluan tmr...
sheena gave me something today.. marshmallows that were given out to jere who gav to mike
who gav to yk where i end up givin to jere n mike again and pat end up hav two left.... *cries*..
i ate one and kept one for fred. wad was also given to me was a chopstick like thingy...
for me to tie hair one....
basically today very boring. and cos i am meeting fred at 4.30PM for a swim
but my class ended at about 2++PM, i changed to meeting him at about 4PM.
hanged out with Yk and jere awhile at TM before leaving for queenstown.
swam with fred alone and it was fun.
he left his keys in the hse cos he left his pants there.
stupid boi.. thank god his mum was in but then again, she tot he was a salesman
and just continued lying on the flr without answering the door..
we waited for quite sometime before fred some banging on the door.

had sushi and fried rice for dinner.
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*sweet*
hee.. let this be a special hint for wilfred haha...

New Year Resolution

>>Save more money

>>Cushion, and mat for fred's new room

>>New T-shirts for fred

>>Get good grades

>>A couple of new t-shirts for myself

>>lose weight erm fred said till 50KG... *sweat drops*

weird sight i encountered was seeing a mouse in the middle of the void deck at a weird crouching position, motionless. i tried to hop left walk three steps back. by RIGHT, the mouse should've scrambled off already. but now it's by LEFT and the mouse is still at the same position. haha.. like kana waxed HAHA

okok woke up this morning with myself huggin on to wilfred like as if he's a pillow. HUGE ONE HAHA then end up i become the bolster cos i stole his bolster... =__=;; we woke up and wash up and all...but of course, before that we lied on the bed for damn long also hahaha... tired like siao..

i left only $2 in my wallet man..... so pathetic... and of course.. with some coins haha.. then at least managed to have a meal at 429 lah with a can of coke. then i'm totally broke. that meal was pretty filling and i was so full after eating it so i guess it's worth it. i suggested to have a walk to Lot 1. so we did. it was pretty fun but one thing tho.. i'm kinda sick of walking haha... u'll know why when u read more. it's a horrifying experience. saw the news about countdwn at siloso beach? they said it was fun n all? dun be cheated.. they're juz showing the 'good' side of it... i shall reveal the 'underlying' complaints...

okok hmmm basically didn't do too much today but had fun juz being with wilfred. i cried though. cos was saying how paranoid, scared and unsure of wad's in for me for 2003.. haiz...then cried pretty badly cos was also thinking abt wad will happen when fred goes ns... then i'll be sorta left alone to cope with everything and not havin him to be there whenever i nid him or something...

we hang around the comic connection there while we saw some clip of the Resident Evil movie. looks pretty interesting haha i'm getting fred to dl it to watch. plus he was also pretty absorbed by the Lord Of The Rings game the shop assistant was playing with the XBOX... effects r very gd. i was juz randomly walkin ard inside checking out the comics and seeing if there's any new arrivals. seems like CLAMP X is out. found some hentai comic wahahaha never knew they had it there too. GTASTE by the same author of dear boys can u imagine that? Gee..

saw some cute digi charat keychains but they sell only as a set of 5 and it cost about $35... not veri takai cos cute and if get frm ActionCity shld b more ex...but..chotto... binbou da. hahahaha sad sia no money cant buy anything.. even saw some cute cards man.. cant buy. 6 for $1. *RARGH* nvm...I WILL BE BACK!

when sch starts and i can spend less, i'll save more so i can dun b so fed up with $$ probs.. tmr go eat cutlet rice whaaha with cheese sticks!! *lick lips* then with the saved up money i can buy the stuff i wan and spend with more ease...

Continuation of Wednesday Stuff
suddenly blank out and cant remember what happened in the earlier part of the day wahahaha erm. oh yah i mentioned wahahha ate pasta and all.... okok fred came to my house and used my comp for awhile then we left for Pasta Mania @ Parkway. spent about.... $14++ alrite lah pretty cheap for pasta and it tasted very good and filling too. we had creamy chicken and mediterranian something something *forgot wahaha* and the creamy chicken was abit tad too thick but it tasted good. but could get sick of it easily. so i asked for two plates and halfed both dishes and we shared it. the mediterranian one is gd cos it's tomato sauce and with lotsa ingredients so it's very appetizing making the creamy chicken easier to finish. we eat finish and all then left to go orchard. Terry as usual was late but still we met up and all and went to talk ard alittle before he went and meet Nancy. a girl he sorta knew very long already... indonesian but living in Sg very long already but her accent is still very distinctive. she was at the manicure shop wah kao spend $25 on nails.... somemore is same colour not say with pattern or wad... expensive...!!!! anyway, we ate mac or rather they ate at mac and then nancy talk very funny... haha but naturally behave and walk like someone who is rich. infact, she IS rich. then when she left we also left for Sentosa.

stupid move. very late and it's all terry's fault. never for once he is punctual. caused us all the trouble. when we got to tiong bahru the crowd was mad lor.... we waited for the shuttle bus to sentosa and a couple left without us being able to get up. finally when we were able to get up which was.... i duno... i lost track of time.. shld be either 7++PM or 8++PM and we were squashed in the bus. me n fred was stuck at the door there sweating profusely and had two guys climb up previously to free up some space. terrible man. when we reached somewhere near Sentosa at some port, things got even more impossible. Traffic Jam. jam jam jam on n on it goes till we're stuck in the middle and the bus was hardly moving anymore. kind enough the bus driver opened the door and let us out. we got out and walked. things got alittle faster then. hated when we're in the bus and havin ppl pt and laugh n stuff. ridiculous sight. we thought that was all but no. cos terry's friend "didn't have enough" to pay for our tix first, we walked till we suddenly saw a HUGE HUGE HUGE crowd lining up. at first we didn't know what was it for. but as we followed another crowd and tried to go in, we were stopped. we needed tix. wad was the crowd for? to queue for tix. we were frustrated and shocked and didn't know what to do. terry cut through the plants to cut queue n buy tix. there was this irritating guy working there who time and time tried to prevent ppl frm cutting through. bought the tix and it cost about $21 each. ex man. seriously, not worth it. we got in but frm frnt gate till siloso beach was damn long leh.... we walked and walked and walked for god knows how long... passed sijou restaurant then walked on and on...and reached sunset bay... walked more and finally.. siloso beach. SIAN AR.... not the end man... long story to tell. we walked and walked and end up seeing another looooooooooooong until duno go where queue. that was for entering the countdwn area. they were scanning and doing body and bag checks. before queueing muz get wrist tag. fuck sia such lousy organization!!!! the crowd was maddening and finally it's nearing mid nite and the ppl finally let us in but still had to check bag. i managed to hide the bag of alcohol on my right while a cop was checking my bag on the left. haha it's a wonder how i managed to get the drinks in. but i did wahaha and while we were in there the crowd is badly organized... a bunch here and bunch there and people walking everywhere. finally we settled somewhere further dwn. met terry's frenz with one of them named shawn who talked alil to me lah then we went into the foam party. fred was trying to shield me all the way cos i'm a girl and gets easily taken advantage of if not careful. and also there's many guys there. easily will kana "trampled" over.

5....4.....3....2......1..... HAPPY NEW YEAR

wah siao liao. the crowd went insane and bumps, pushed, jabbed all over!! everybody is lost and i was holdin on to my dear life to wilfred although i was pushed away for awhile. the crowd went insane, i was too short and had ppl banging and pushing me and i was squashed till it hurt and even kana elbowed in the head.. luckily not pain. foam was poured over us, wonderful sight but once it hits, it devours you totally and you could hardly see. i hugged fred as tightly as possible. finally we eased to nearer the outing and finally it got alittle better and i was kicking foam already hahaha.. at least the fireworks are nice.. but soon we decided it's better if we get out. so we did. we left out bags at the side and it's not stolen *heng* and we were already soaking wet by then. we sat around awhile and shawn they all decided to leave cos it's so boring. but terry wanted to stay was kept calling this guy call zaina for duno wad. ppl having fun liao as if they'll still giv a damn. we left in the end and cos the transportation was so so so bad, we had to walk all the way out, thinking that we might hav better luck in hailing a cab. Terry was such a nuisance. all he did was to moan and groan and complain. like a freakin sissy. fred was pretty frustrated then but i kept him going and bubbling around him to keep his spirits up. he was barefooted cos his slippers broke. we walked for a VERY long time. guess how long? ONE FUCKIN HOUR AND FOURTY FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!! kaoz!!!! all the way frm siloso beach to residential area at bukit purmei!!!! you know why? even if we got out, we weren't the only one walkin and there was juz too many ppl walking out and competition for taxi was impossible. we walked and walked till we finally reached bt purmei where we got on a cab.

frankly speaking we didn't have money left. so the cab driver was kind hearted enough to drop us off somewhere where i ran to the atm to draw out money. we walked back up to fred's hse although halfway through while i was calculating how much i spent i realised i spent alot today and mebbe the my phsical and mental tiredness is wearing me dwn and i broke dwn into tears. i felt desperate for that moment and juz kept on crying. fred was there to calm me dwn at least. when i got emotionally more stablized, we went on up and me n fred bathed. after we bathe, while terry was bathing, we cooked instant noodles and fried eggs to go with it. at least we had something to eat. after eating we went dwn to get some drinks. that was basically how we spent the nite. we checked the net for mails and stuff and then and then fred tucked me into bed first hehe at about.... 5PM or so. he said some sweet stuff, gd nite kissed and tucked me in. i think i fell asleep immediately. when i gained consciousness again, fred n terry was in the rm packing up for terry to leave. when terry left, fred came in to slp.

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